Failure

I've been waiting for this moment
All my life
Never knew it would bring tears
To my eyes
When it was success I was
Working for,
I've been struck dumb by
My failure
I never knew this side
Of me existed
Bleak and pale, destroyed and
Filled with despair
My heart is torn, so are my eyes-
Blinded by grief.
I fall upon my knees, palms
Kneading the earth
My tears are mingling with the dust, and
So are my hopes
How could this happen to me
After all I've tried?
I gave all my time, to
Savour success
Yet my time now, can only be used
To brush off the dust,
Get up and move on,
Although failure knives me
From behind.

-Nicky Eira